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Dear Journal,

Thu Nov 19, 2009, 1:36 AM
What the hell is wrong with me?......
Why is it that when things finally seem to be fine, I ruin everything with my own fear?... It seems that whenever I take one step forward I get pushed two steps back.... Why do I have this horrible feeling? What happens next? Am I missing something again? Are these shadows really something that I should be afraid of? Or should I just ignore them and focus on the one thing I want the most..... Do I ignore everything around me and trust that tiny feeling I had that brought me this far?
What do I do.....
And dammit, what am I so terrified of? It's fear that destroyed me before... Why can't I overcome this fear? Why can't I just trust that everything will be okay.....
why cant I just trust him......
God... what the hell is wrong with me......

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  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: So Sick by Ne-Yo
  • Reading: breaking dawn
  • Watching: Stargate Atlantis
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: cheap cola

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  • Current Residence: SoCal
  • Interests: WoW, anime, video games, drawing, reading, Music, writing, soda, M&Ms, sleeping
  • Favourite movie: Shaun of the Dead
  • Favourite band or musician: Korn and Incubus
  • Favourite genre of music: I love anything that sounds good
  • Favourite artist: too many
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephanie Meyer
  • Favourite photographer: me
  • Favourite style of art: traditional
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft
  • Favourite gaming platform: Play Station 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Zack Fair
  • Personal Quote: "I do not regret the things I have done, but those I have not."
  • Tools of the Trade: Whatever I can get my hands on

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~Kuragari-no-Akane Oct 21, 2009, 2:37:54 PM
Wow, I'm getting quite a few :+fav: from you! Thanks Mishi!

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What is trust? You will never truly know, until you've been stabbed in the back.
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~Nac-re-Te Oct 4, 2009, 4:06:38 PM
Hi Mishi, just wanted to say 'Hi' and say sorry for my absence here and on WoW, I had it curtailed except for when I play with my sister because I was failing French, I really do suck at it...

In other news, how are you?

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To quote the universe,
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~Misheru-san Oct 5, 2009, 6:22:53 PM
im not so great... been involved with alot of drama and Im just about ready to welcome the end of existence with a smile.

I'm begining to feel better though. Nothing gets my spirits up like fall. it's my favorite season. :)

I havent been on wow for like 2 months... my dad wont let me use his computers. electric bill is too high. He swears up and down that its because of the computers but he just got his electric bill and it was only lowered by $75. He continues to blame me.

I hope to be able to play wow with you again soon though...

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"It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it."
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~Nac-re-Te Oct 6, 2009, 1:59:51 PM
You'll have to wait another year and two months for that deary, but I feel like it will have gotten better by then and we will all have an ironic end... I'm glad that you'll be happier now in my favorite season :)

I don't trust the electric company anymore because it says our payment was only $76.82 for last month... I think they're going to scam us or something... It isn't right for him to blame you, it really isn't anyone's fault; California isn't known for its electrical market, perhaps the government will make it all better with their 10sr miles in the desert...

Don't focus on what could be like WoW, focus on the happy things that are happening right now, like autumn =D

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To quote the universe,
"POKE!"
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~Misheru-san Oct 6, 2009, 2:33:52 PM
lol, I try to focus on the things that make me happy, but I think I'm losing one of the things that makes me the most happy...
*sigh*

I guess I'll have to enjoy autumn alone for now.... again....

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"It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it."
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~Nac-re-Te Oct 6, 2009, 2:37:00 PM
Poor Mishi, I wish I could help...
*Waves to you from Colorado*

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To quote the universe,
"POKE!"
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